Monday, November 14, 2011

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Janji kawan lebih penting dari aku.

Its saturday, was supposed to be our day like usual. But this saturday, we missed it. Im so fucking disappointed. The promises made to your friend is way important than spending a day with me. How many time did they get to meet you and how many times or must i say HOURS did i get to meet you in a week? Why didnt you put me first?! I always turn down my friends invitation on saturdays because i want to see you.
I know where i stand now. I dont know why am i crying for this worthless thing. I survived days and weeks before of not meeting you. But why can't i be strong of a day not seeing you?! WHY?!

You didnt even bother to text me? You know how i waited for your text hoping you would change your mind and come to meet me? I held the phone in my hand throughout the whole night, making sure that i wont miss your text. But it was pointless. Not a single text.

Im always crying for the lamest thing ever. No one understands what i want. No ever knew whats in my mind and heart. I cried silently at night. I want a good cry, a listener and a shoulder to cry on. I really need that now. I really need that now.

Maybe i should go get myself drunk. People always say, drinking is the way to bury your sorrows.

Saturday, November 12, 2011

So i can see for myself, how we're drifting apart. :( i miss you and our times. I know you're busy. Sigh.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Its dayyyys to our oneee year. Time flies so fast! I miss this boy more and more.

I spent my whole weekend with baby. It was fucking fun and awesome! I realised that we really had a good laugh and fun. It was different from the other days we usually spent. I was fucking happy. On saturday we went keppel bay for sight seeing. We watch the ferries pass by. We laughed until i cried. the most epic one is when baby pretended to die and i was like laughing/crying pretending he died and asking him to wake up etc. Like how you see in the movies laa. Like that laaa. We spent our whole evening there before eating at macs. :)

I meet baby on sunday again. I know its hari raya haji. We were bored so yeah, I met him up at habourfront before we make our way to clementi woods. What a boringgg place. :( it was dissapointing. But neverless, i enjoyed all the laughter we had here and there. despite a boring place we went to, we still had fun in our way. Baby's company was indeed already the best thing. what more going through day with him, laughing. Its awesome. We had dinner at macs, we ate double cheese burger and shared a large coke. baby shared some heartbreaking truth during our relationship. Though its heartbreaking im grateful that i came to know about it now. Thanks for being truthful baby. Im glad that you put a stop to it. We made a deal about my clubbing issues, hehehehe. But the deal its not official yet. Wait till our one year, we're going to make the deal again. :)


Monday, i meeeeet him again. So went over to his place, Lepaaaaak all the way until he book in. :( till saturday theeen i meet him. saaaaad. :(

thats all folks. byeee.

Sunday, November 6, 2011

HAIIII! ♥

I love this botak head bacin boy of mine! hek heekkk. I went out with my lovely boyfriend just now. Its like a day full of laughter. I laugh alot just now. hehe.

Our 1st anniversary is cominggg soon. I can see how baby is egg-xited about it. Shoooo tiut uh. actually im out of idea what to blog about.

kay bye for now. :)

Friday, November 4, 2011

Hi smexy peopleeeeee!

I know i havent been updating. When was my last post ? JULY! Haha, i didnt have much time to blog. Or maybe i did have time just that im lazy to type things. Or i know the fact that no one actually drop by my blog so that gives me more reason not to blog. Well whatever it is, with or without readers i want to start blogging again.

For the past months, i experienced a lot of ups and down. Be it with my work life, school life and my relationship. lets break it up.

My work life was in a total mess especially when i get hold of my driving license. The eager i get wanting to own my own transportation. I worked two jobs. A day job and an evening one.  I thought i could cope with these two jobs. But what i thought i could do, i can't actually. I jumbled up everything. Both jobs was in a mess. I skip one after another. The distance between two jobs is not that near either. I didnt know myself why i took up two jobs. My initial plan was to save up for school. Despite i have two jobs, i REALLY cant save for school and my bike. I wasted the money on my cabbing and other stuff. sigh. I quit my evening job somewhere in september and continued my day job. I recently resigned from my day job because i dont think the money can allow me to spend for the whole month. It only managed to stay with me for half a month. For the remaining days im moneyless. Haha. If  there's even such a word. So im officially a joblesssssss person now. :)

My relationship. The best i ever had! My boyfriend is the most awesom-est boyfriend i've ever had. I hope we will last forever and ever and ever. Haha. My boyfriend is the most patient boyfriend. Im the impatient one here. I start arguments, i find fault, i have my pms. But dearest bf stayed on and be patient. I am very demanding, i always want everything to go my way. Like i love clubbing a lot but boyfriend despise it. Im not allowed to party. :(  I am a fucked up girlfriend who doesnt want to compromise. I should call myself lucky that i have him. He stayed on no matter what happened.  I know sometimes in major arguments, i always asked him to let go of me or the easiest way to say break upppp! I dont know why, i always think that im not good enough for him. Always torturing his feelings with my doings. I felt that someone better would deserve him. Someone who will not hurt him like how i did. Someone who would treat him nicely. Someone who would obey him, who wouldnt go against him like how i did. hekhek.
And boyfriend, If along the way you find that we cant get along anymore or you found someone new, tell me straight and dont leave me hanging.

Despite all that, my love never change ever since the first day i meet you. No one could ever replace you in my heart. chekkkk~~~ suhweeet tak aku?

this is a wordy possst. i'll stop here. 

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Hari hari ku menjadi indah, dengan adanya kamu.